I don't know how much more I can take. Every day is a battle of worrying/wondering if I actually have a brain tumor or not! It's making me go crazy and I can't really afford to go crazy! I'm a 21 year old female who's in college and when on summer break I work with kids. I don't want to scare the kids I work with or make them start questioning symptoms either. I guess I just either want this done and over with or I want to heal. Right now I want to heal. I told my parents last night that I'm ready to go see a counselor. I guess before I go on I should post my symptoms:
ringing in ears
•tingling in limbs/twitches
•cloudy vision (more recently....like especially TODAY....it has been blurry...even with my new prescription!)
•headaches (mostly pressure, but sometimes pain, in a localized spot)
•having a difficult time remembering things(kind of)
•hand feels hot
•mumbling over my words
Freaky, right? I know. I live with it. I was actually starting to feel a little better about things. Most things were going away....but then my aunt stepped in and told me the worst thing someone could tell me. As I stated it in a previous post of mine:
"And my aunt freaked me out the other day and told me I should go get an MRI because I told her I have headaches and some problems with my vision and she said she knew a guy who had headaches and blurry vision and he went to the doctor and they found a tumor the size of a tennis ball! Totally freaked me out and I started bawling right in front of her! Ever since, I haven't been able to shake that terrible bug that I really do have one myself!"
Thankfully I have had the member sixpack to cheer me on and help me get over fears but when I woke up this morning and my right eye was blurry, I lost it again and this time I'm not sure I can get it back. I'm ready to go to counseling but I won't be able to make an appointment for a while. I need some advice....FAST! Like ASAP! I'm freaking out and I can barely live life. I'm just going through the motions I remember. Please help me, I want to heal! If I really do have a bt, which of course I think I do, then I guess I'll just go and die but if I don't, and I really REALLY pray I don't, then I want to heal and get my life back! Thank you in advance!