i'v been going to a therapist since i was diagnosed with GAD early this year, so about 4-5 months and when i started going i knew that i would be moving some time in the summer. well...it's now summer...and i'm moving in a week
so obviously i had to have my last session with my therapist, which was really hard for me because she was the first person that i had ever completely opened up to and just spilled my guts to and i really like her a lot -not in a weird way- she's just so nice and funny and i really looked forward to my appointments because if i was having a really bad week i had someone to talk to about my bad week, if i had a good week i could go and tell her all about it, if i did something that i was proud of myself for -like say, ordering a coffee, or something else that would usually make me anxious- then i could go and tell her and even though its something small that would be meaningless to anyone else, she would make me feel like it was something to be proud of. i had always felt like i would never feel better again and i could never be normal. but after a few months i actually felt like i could get better, and i have her to thank for that.
my last session was really good, i had a really good two weeks and i was in a really wonderful mood, i was generally in a really good place. so we talked about moving, and all the changes that were going to come with moving, the funny things that happened in the previous two weeks, we talked about our doggies, finding another therapist where i was moving, school, family, all kinds of things really. and when i was leaving i really wanted to hug her and thank her for everything she's done for me, but i just couldn't bring myself to do it, and she walked me to my car and talked to my mom for a bit about my progress and said that she was really happy with what a good place i seemed to be in, and then we left...and i felt really good about everything until about 2 hours after i got home and i started to feel really guilty for not thanking her and then i started getting anxious and about an hour later i was on the verge of a full on anxiety attack and i thought "i need to remember to tell Shauna about this next week"..and then i realized that i wasn't going to see her next week...and i just kind of broke down and start crying and i couldn't stop. i just kept thinking about how when i move i'll still be able to see my friends and family again, probably even once a month, but i would never see her again, and i keep thinking about how i didn't thank her and that she won't know how much i appreciate everything shes done fore me and how much shes helped me, and it just made me get really depressed...
so i'v been feeling this way for a couple days (my appointment was on the 18th) and i just feel like it's stupid of me to be this emotional about a therapist and i feel really guilty for being so upset over it. i keep having moment where i think about it and i start to cry again, then immediately after, i tell myself i shouldnt be upset, but i can't stop being upset..and i really don't know what to do
i know this is really long. but i just really need some advice about this and i need to know if other people have felt the same way about leaving a therapist?