My name is Becca, I'm a 26 yr old graduate student in Minnesota. I have always been a "worrywart" as a child and even had a couple very temporary bouts with anxiety in middle and high school. However, it wasn't until I had a full hip replacement when I was nineteen that the anxiety became acute and debilitating. I started therapy and lexapro soon after returning home from the hospital and the meds worked for me. At the time I didn't think that maybe I should stick with it for a little while, and weaned off the meds after several months. The acute anxiety came back, I went back to therapy and lexapro, and the combination worked for me again. However, I once again weaned myself off the lexapro, but found that it didn't work for me when I started up again. This was very scary for me, and my GP prescribed Zoloft which did end up working, for five years.
Just this April, after being on 75mg of Zoloft for five years, I felt I was ready to come back down to 50. Within a couple weeks, the same old familiar "twinges" were back and soon I was experiencing a full blown acute anxiety episode. The way I describe my GAD is like having a mild panic attack....but one that lasts all day. I am unable to relax, get out of my head, I have trouble staying asleep, pulling myself out of bed, and the biggest things is the eating. I lose my appetite, and have to force myself to eat. I'm not anxious about money or job etc, but just the state of feeling anxious. I worry that I will continue to feel this way, and worry about how I will feel at future events.
This time around, I have seen a psychiatrist as well as a therapist who is skilled in Tai Chi Chih. Doc has bumped me up to 150 mg of Zoloft as well as 50mg of Trazodone for sleep. She has also prescribed taking two .5mg tablets of Klonopin a day and I was started to feel more and more periods of relift - but I was only taking one .5mg in the morning until recently. In the last several days, however, my "Monkey mind" has been taking hold and although I know this process takes time and trial and error, I have a big fear that the Zoloft isn't going to work for me this time. I know there are other medications I can try - but the days just seem so hard and long. My parents, friends, family are all very supportive, but they don't understand what this is like. This is my situation at the present - just looking for affirmation, reassurance, and cyber hugs.