I am a mother to a 20 month old. I had a normal pregnancy first time around, but a difficult birth which kicked off my PTSD and HA. I also developed severe HA over the health and wellbeing of my child.
Now, I'm starting to come around to the idea of wanting a second child. However, I am so fearful of a few things. Firstly, if I were to fall pregnant, and develop some horrible illness the doctors wouldn't touch me with a barge pole, as it's too risky for the unborn child, no tests, no medication.....I could die! Secondly, I'm worried of having another difficult birth experience and dying during childbirth or due to complications. And thirdly, I worry so much about my child, I just don't know if I could handle the anxiety of worrying for 2 kids, double the anxiety I currently have.
Any advice or words of encouragement from other parents please?