my father's brain tumor was malignant tumor in his right temporal lobe. He died almost a year to the day that he was diagnosed.
a 3yr old little girl (sister to some neighborhood kids when I was kid) was born with a brain stem tumor. She died.
My kids' preschool teacher lost her 14yr old to a brain stem tumor.
My sister had a benign menigioma the size of a baseball removed from her frontal lobe in 2008. She is doing very well, except she does have some slight balance issues from either the tumor being there so long or from the surgeon poking around.
My neighbor's grandson had a tumor removed at about age three. He has a genetic syndrome and likely was born with it. He is 6 or 7 now.
Another neighbor's brother, in his early 60's, had a glioblastoma. He passed away.
One of my high school classmates was dx'd with a glioblastoma about 3yrs ago. His treatment plan has greatly reduced his tumor. He is, last I heard, doing well.
Brain tumors can be scary for sure. HOWEVER YOU DON'T HAVE ONE
You have an anxiety disorder causing your symptoms. Stress/anxiety are not innocuous. They cause REAL symptoms.
AND losing your grip? yeah happened to me. When I get wiggy, my arm or hand or leg or ____ can feel like that for weeks at a time. It is the result of amped up nerves and over production of adrenaline coursing through the body. As long as you stay in this heightened anxiety state YOU ARE GOING to have freaky arsed symptoms.
What controls your body? Your brain. What do you think happens when a brain is highly stressed? It starts reacting. which, in turn, sends out panicky signals, via the nervous system. The endocrine system starts the fight/flight response ---cue adrenaline/cortisol--- What happens is your body reacts like a guy with the knife on that lonely street starts chasing you. Needing the fight/flight response is great for getting away from the bad guy. it gives you the burst of energy, heightens your senses etc. Unfortunately when your mind gets continually stressed--it thinks you are always in danger. your nervous system continues getting panic signals from the brain. the body reacts in kind. Bottom line the body is stuck in over reaction mode. That is TOUGH on the body. That is when you start getting all kinds of physical symptoms. The amped up/anxious brain falsely interprets all of this. Then the cascade of fight/flight starts again. How does one break that cycle? That is the million dollar question, isn't it? It isn't do 1,2,3 and you are done. it is a long term process. it can take you months to start to see some progress.
First thing you have to do, is take a leap of faith that what i am telling you is not a load of crap.
You have to stop googling symptoms. You have to stop monitoring your body for symptoms. You have to stop seeking reassurance. You have to start getting outside of your head. I talked a lot about that stuff in those links I posted on your other thread. In the end no one can make you better. It is you who has to fix it. Damned vexing, I know. And believe it or not I was where you are now a few years back.