Two years ago I was diagnosed with anxiety and ocd and lately I have been experiencing serve anxiety about losing my mind and developing schizophrenia/psychosis. This all started as one of my mates were diagnosed with drug-induced psychosis recently this has made me look more into the illness making me extremely scared. I have smoked weed and done mdma, and the last time i done mdma i had an anxiety attack on it. This is another worry i have due to my anxiety/ocd which convinced myself that the way i feel now is due to the mdma i took and i am stuck in a trip which isn't possible with mdma. I am still functioning normally and have a strong family/social life so it is very unlikely that the experience with mdma done too much damage (even if damage was done)
To be honest i am really scared and i have become obsessed with the symptoms of schizophrenia/psychosis. Due to this i now think of the symptoms and think 'what if' and lately i have been thinking 'what if' people are after me or the government is watching me. I know this is not true but just the thought of thinking that really scares me. Also every sound i hear i make sure it isn't a voice by checking my surroundings but because of this its hard to distinguish between the sound i hear my mind presumes it is a voice. No one in my family has any mental illnesses relating to psychosis or schizophrenia and the majority of my family have anxiety and ocd issues. Is there anyone who can reassure me i am not crazy and know if the drug done any damage? Thank you it will be much appreciated.