I originally was scared of a brain tumor, which turned out to be nothing thankfully, however, it took a couple of months to get an MRI so all that worrying left my body in awful condition as I'm sure all of you can imagine. I found that out at the beginning of May, but that's not to say I haven't been worried since then. It wasn't at the level that I previously was, or necessarily about health, but those small health concerns I still had along with having to get A LOT of work done for all of my AP classes for the last month of my senior year still had me a little in shambles. I've only been able to relax for about a week.
So about my lymphoma fears, the main reason I'm so worried about it is because back in January I was laying in bed when my top lip started swelling out of nowhere. It was on the part that points up under my nose, but only on the right side. I wasn't having trouble breathing in a sense that I felt like it was an emergency or anything, but I was panicking pretty badly which might have led to some hyperventilation or something like that. The swelling was completely gone by afternoon the next day. The same thing happened again about 2 months later. I also noticed that soon before that happened, my inner thigh of my right leg look like it had a red patch, kind of like a rash on it, that itched just a little from what I remember. Ever since I've started worrying a lot, I've also noticed that doing physical activities that don't seem difficult will make my heart rate go up to what feels to me like it's probably 120-130. For instance, yesterday I was playing golf, which isn't the most strenuous of activities, and it felt like it was beating that fast at some points throughout the day. Sometimes when this happens, I feel a little out of breath. Nothing crazy, I'm just breathing a little harder than usual. I also sweat more than other people from what I've gathered. It's nothing crazy though, just enough to make my shirt under my armpits wet when it looks like other people aren't having the same problem. I'm not having night sweats by the way. With that being said, I'm in really bad shape compared to what I have been in the past. It's also really hot where I live right now. I also sometimes feel like I have chest congestion, like bronchitis, but a really really mild case. What I mean by that is my chest has that gross mucusy feeling, but just enough to barely even know it's there. My neck and the lymph nodes in my neck also feel sore and a bit big today, but I was messing with them a lot yesterday so that might be the cause. IF YOU DON'T WANT TO READ THE ABOVE STATEMENT, I'LL SUMMARIZE AND ADD A FEW MORE SYMPTOMS BELOW
- Lips swelling up for less than 24 hours on 2 separate occasions
- Feeling slightly out of breath after doing simple physical activities outside like playing golf
- Increased heart rate to above 120 when doing said activities
- Itchy spot on chin (might just be dry skin)
- Sometimes slightly yellow stool. Makes me think I have decreased liver function or something. I've also heard it can be from GERD though, which I think I have. One time it was very yellow, but it hasn't looked like that since.
- Feeling like I have slight chest congestion sometimes. It feels most evident after working out, which I've only started doing again in the last week.
The reason I'm so afraid of lymphoma is because I've seen cases where it presents itself in this recurrent swelling of lips and heart problems. Having the other symptoms doesn't ease my anxiety either. However the case reports said that the type of lymphoma that presents itself this way is more common among asians, and I'm white.
I also feel like I should share the classic lymphoma symptoms that I don't have.
- Weight loss. If anything, I've gained maybe 10 pounds over the course of the year.
- Night sweats
- Tons of itching, other than that one spot on my chin that might just be dry skin.
- Fatigue. If I have nothing to do I could sleep for up to 12 hours if I'm feeling lazy, but as soon as I decide to get up if I've had at least 5 or 6 hours I feel fine for most of the day.
- Fever. As far I can tell, I haven't been having any.
As far as the swollen lymph nodes I'm kind of confused on what to be looking for. Should I even be able to feel them at all if they're not swollen? Because I'm pretty sure I can feel them, but they move around like they're supposed to and they don't feel awfully hard. They feel semi firm, but not really hard. Well, one of them feels kind of hard right now actually but could that just be from me messing with it so much yesterday and today? Even the hardest one just feels like a firm little rubber ball thing in my neck. How hard is too hard?
I'm sure you guys can do a good job of calming me down and taking a rational approach to this.