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New - Struggling to see past this
« on: June 14, 2014, 09:08:01 AM »
Hey guys,

Lurked on here for a while but only just decided to post.

My anxiety symptoms started with me mirroring some symptoms of a heart attack after my dad had one, chest pains, thinking the pain ran down my arm etc, then I had my first panic attack when hungover about two months ago, and since then it has been hell. the first two weeks were the worst in terms of anxiety, but since then it seems to have changed and I'm having a hard time convincing myself that it isn't something more serious. My thoughts are very weird, as in I can't explain them, it's as if my perspective has changed. My vision is seriously messed up but the opticians say all is fine - I swear things move around and floaters are terrible, flashes etc. I just feel so wrong, it's as if anxiety is something foreign to me now and it's some other horrible thing. I have some times were i can be positive, briefly, but then it all comes back with this horrible feeling. Sometimes people will say something and i'll just see what they've said as strange, I'll understand it but it'll be difficult to be familiar with. I'm not drinking or anything which at 20 years old is getting me down as obviously seeing all of my friends go out all the time and having a good time is hard to not be a part of anymore. I don't feel like my anxiety is about anything, i don't worry about nything except this - I am so scared of losing my mind and i know that's common ubt it's so hard to see past. I worry inwardly the whole time and i just can't get past it.

Is this all anxiety? Is the weirdness and difficulty comprehending things brain fog? Can it be this weird? I have been to the doctors multiple times and I'm very reluctant to go onto meds. My dad is fine now and I thought this was all to do with this, but i think it could be a longer term disorder. Any words of help and/or advice are rgeatly appreciated, I'm really struggling here.

Thanks guys, all the best.
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Re: New - Struggling to see past this
« Reply #1 on: June 14, 2014, 10:23:12 AM »

Welcome to the group and thank you for sharing your experience with us . .. I am not a med professional so what I am saying is from personal experience  . . .it may or may not help . . .

For me, it is not unusual to mirror the symptoms that we fear the most . . . even though your dad has recovered from his heart attack, you probably are very familiar with the symptoms. Coupled with being anxious about your dad's health and maybe projecting somewhat on to your health, then it is quite possible that your physical symptoms are triggered by your anxiety which, in turn, triggers the physical symptoms . . . for some of us with anxiety, alcohol, especially in quantities when it produces a hangover is a dangerous combination . . . alcohol allows anxiety to run free in the mind and, also, the hangover simply intensifies physical reactions . . . it is also not unusual that anxiety manifests itself in dizziness and vision problems . . . for some, it is because of the amount of adrenaline produced with anxiety and for others it is an instinctive reaction to lower blood pressure in preparation for fight or flight . . .given that the opticians have given you a clean bill of health from the vision perspective, then these physical symptoms could be related to anxiety . . . as for hearing or interpreting people's statements as strange, well, anxiety can make us distracted and distant and this can make it difficult to process information appropriately . . .

Now, having said all of that . . .our brains usually do not stop forming until our mid-20s so now is a good time to deal with anxiety . . . I know that socializing and drinking when you are 20 go hand in hand but they need not do so . . . do you have to be drinking / drunk to have a good time? it's something of a decision making process --- you have a choice . . . drink and pay the price afterwards or take the time now to resolve issues of anxiety and see your friends in non-alcoholic situations . . . if you all need to be drunk to have fun, and, again, yeah, I know this is the culture, then you will have to make the best decision for yourself . . . .and right now, drinking does not seem to be doing you much good . . .

I honestly do not think that you are losing your mind . . .despite saying you don't worry about anything, I think you might have some residual worries re: dad . . . . you do not have to take meds . . . for some, meds are a lifelong commitment and for others they are a bridge and still for others meds are not used . . .that is a personal decision . . .what I would suggest that you consider is getting some directed counseling to help you identify the triggers to your anxiety and manage them so that you can get past this road block now . . . but, really, what you have described is for me quite typical of some type of anxiety and it does not need to be a long term disorder . . . if you work with a counselor, find one that has experience in the area, who is there to help guide you to develop strategies, and who listens to you . . .this needs not be a psychiatrist who often deal more with symptoms than root causes . . . you may have to "interview" several counselors to find one with whom you are comfortable but that's okay . . . the counselor needs to meet your goals and not the other way around . . .and remember, this is a process not a one time event . . . you do need to engage but at your age, now is an excellent time to deal with your anxiety now . . . but I doubt that you are weird or losing your mind . . . do let us know how things are working out for you and come back here any time . . .even if just to say hello . . . .and if you need any support, know that we will do our best to help you . . .take care, kc
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Re: New - Struggling to see past this
« Reply #2 on: June 14, 2014, 10:36:06 AM »
Hi TopBananas...  Welcome to Anxiety Zone!  My name is Chuck, and I am one of the Global Moderators here on the site.

You are now a member of our community, where you will find support and advice from other members in similar situations.   It's always nice to find someone else who understands, and to know you're not alone.

We have sections in the forum that address specific concerns, so feel free to post or start a new topic in the section that best fits your situation.  Feel free to explore the rest of the forum.  You may find the other topics helpful, and you may be able to offer advice or support to someone else.

We also have a chat room for members over the age of 18.  Once you have made three meaningful posts, you will be allowed access to the chat room.

Top, none of us here on Anxiety Zone can diagnose another member.  Only your own physician can do that.  However, I can share with you that everything that you are going through, I have gone through.  It was hard for me to believe, with all the symptoms I was experiencing, that this could just be an anxiety disorder.  I saw many a physician specialist, had dozens of tests done.  Even had a cardiac cath, and everything came out normal.  So. I finally had to admit that it was anxiety.

Today I see a psychiatrist, and she is in charge of my mental health needs.  Psychiatrists are medical doctors, so they can provide you with a diagnosis, prescribe medication, and develop a treatment plan specific for your needs.  I also see a therapist (psychologist), and she is teaching me cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT).

Life isn't perfect, Top, but I am doing better, and if you look closely, nobody has a perfect life.

Again, welcome to Anxiety Zone.  The very best to you, Top!...  Chuck :grinning-smiley-003:
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