Hi all. I know I'm a new user and I feel guilty about not being able to contribute anything myself but I hope some kind people here can help me.
It all started about two weeks ago when I noticed some abnormalities with my breathing. From the moment I woke up to the moment I went to bed I felt every breath I took was a conscious effort, or that I was at least more aware of it. As this progressed and I paid more and more attention to it I began to realise that I was also not eating very much for the last two weeks, having been unable to finish most of my meals. I didn't worry at the time, but in the last few days after weighing in the breathless feelings I began to worry and started to look things up on google and I've come to the conclusion that I have lung cancer, and I'm even convinced of the type - adenocarcinoma of the right lung, on the upper right side due to occasional mild discomfort I get there.
I made an emergency appointment with the doctor yesterday and he listened to my lungs and measured my oxygen levels and I was told that my lungs were healthy and the airflow was good. I asked for an x-ray but he was insistent that at this stage it's not required and just sent me for blood tests which I'm still waiting on. He said lung cancer at my age (21) is incredibly rare and that he would tend to a diagnosis of anxiety for now.
The problem I have is that I'm not healthy, at all. I'm a recently ex-smoker having I smoked around 15 cigarettes a day for the last three years. I've suffered from social anxiety and mild agoraphobia all my life, causing me to lead a chronically sedentary lifestyle and now I feel it's all caught up with me and I've basically just been asking to develop something like this. Everyone tells me it's anxiety but I look back at the way the symptoms developed and it seems they developed independently of any anxiety until now, although I admit my appetite has worsened now it's become a concern. Worsened to the point at which I haven't eaten in two days, and I cannot even bring myself to swallow anything and I start retching and dry heaving. Only thing I can eat is fruit or vegetables, anything like meat or bread I canít handle. I tried to eat some toast this morning but I ended up spitting it back out.
I'm just terrified I have this horrible disease and I'm convincing myself every second that I have it. I look at my symptoms and admit that they are vague, but yet when I put what I have in to google or health sites I see lung cancer come up again and again and again. I'm only 21, I don't want to die. I keep breaking down and crying because I'm so scared, I can't focus on anything but this worry and every little pain or discomfort I get becomes another symptom.
I can't focus on anything but my fear of dying from this horrible, cruel disease. I've even started writing letters to those I love out of fear I may die soon. Can anyone offer and advice or assurances that may help me?