I'm relatively new to this forum, and so far, this place has been a place of reassurance as well as a safe haven.
I'm trying my best to not freak out about the tiniest things, and yet, here I am, freaking out about whether or not I have leukemia.
I know my fear is irrational, as the only symptom I have are petechiae, and they're so minor, it takes awhile just to spot them. Sure I know I haven't noticed them before, but as I type, they're actually a lot less pronounced than what they looked like yesterday, in fact they're actually fading.
Weirdly enough, the petechiae aren't even scattered; they look to be in a grid pattern, so I know that it's probably due to either a) piece of clothing that I may have squished up against, or b) slept on my arm and had some bumps from the blanket bruise.
I know all these things, and knowing that i'm 24, male and with no major history of illnesses, I'm STILL freaking out about this (there's always the "what-if" factor).
I've looked at statistics (average age of diagnosis is around 60-70 years old, with an incidence in the general population of about 12 / 100000), and even though that rate seems pretty low (in fact, I'm in the age which has the LOWEST risk for leukemia, and I have a greater chance of being killed by a CAR, yet I don't freak out about getting into one of those everyday).
All these things point to the fact that I should NOT be worried in the slightest, yet here I am, getting all the ever more anxious.
Is there anything I can do? I'm continually feeling anxious that I'm sick, but I know that I have no reason to.
Thanks for listening, just typing this out has made me feel somewhat better.