Hola! Just registered and wanted to introduce myself. Well lets see, I'm 24 years old and have been living with mental health issues since I was about 11. I first started to become a bit depressed, I started seeing a counselor and a psychiatrist where I was misdiagnosed with bi-polar. I was put on a whole list of medicines which I had terrible reactions to and severe withdrawals from when I tried to get off them. That whole experience turned me away from medication. At about age 14 is when I started to notice my anxiety. I still remember my first anxious thought; I touched the door knob going into class, there was something wet on it, I sat in that room for the next hour panicking that I was "contaminated". As soon as class was over I rushed to wash my hands.
Though the first thought came on seemingly out of nowhere, it was a generally slow progressing issue and my fear of contamination did eventually halt. At the age of 20 I was living a pretty normal life. I had a job I loved, awesome friends, and had just gotten my own apartment. While I still suffered the occasional panic attack or slight irrational thought, it was not debilitating and not frequent. I knew I had anxiety, but it was easy to ignore.
Then one day at work, I suddenly started shaking uncontrollably, first just my hands and within a couple short minutes my whole body. I had never experienced anything like that before and I freaked out. It has been a huge spiral down since then. I started to get these shaky spells of, I quit my job, I moved back home and I managed to get myself pregnant during that time too. Quickly I went from a "normal" life to obsessing over my health non-stop. To this day health anxiety is my number one problem. I started obsessing so much that I started having multiple panic attacks every day. Eventually I became very agoraphobic and wouldn't leave my house. And I ate. I ate all the time to try to suppress my feelings, I gained 100lbs due to that.
In January of 2013 I finally got sick of being sick and after not being in therapy since I was 16, decided to finally go back. I have overcome a lot in this last year and a half; I can leave my house again, I don't have daily panic attacks and I have lost 95lbs! I do however still get stuck on my concerns with health, but it is not near as debilitating as it once was. I am starting school soon, though, as I feel like I need to take the next step in my recovery, but I have to admit as it gets closer to school starting my health obsessions seem to be picking up a bit more. So that is part of the reason I joined here, just looking for a friendly, supportive place to come to in hopes I don't fall too far back into that vicious cycle.
Well I guess that is kinda my story leading up to where I am today. I hope you all have a lovely day!