I'm Brittany and I'm 18 years old. For the past 6 or 7 months I have been suffering with severe and extreme anxiety (at least this is what everyone is trying to tell me).
I started my first year of university this year and I have never been more excited for anything in my entire life, until it all started to go downhill. I began developing extreme anxiety and would constantly have panic attacks.
Hi Brittany, I was 19 years old in my second year of college, when this EXACT THING - happened to me! - before that, like you, I never had any psychological issues.
(This rapid onset correlates exactly to the right age of Panic Disorder, a combination of Depression and especially OCD )
I then began to develop very real symptoms, like chronic headaches and constant nausea. I feel as if my eyes are completely going on me, I feel dizzy and have no energy. My memory is also completely shot. I almost feel like I could fall over and faint at any given moment. My head is always hurting. I feel like my life is in utter and complete shambles. I lost my amazing summer job that was paying me very well because some days I couldn't bring myself to get out of bed in the morning because I felt so sick, so I would just lay in bed and cry. I'm now frightened that I won't be able to make it back to university in the fall.
I took went this path, I lost my job, and wasn't able to finish my college education - this was way back in 1979 - when doctor's were not even aware of this disorder.
I've seen countless doctors and I have truly insisted that I be put through every single test imaginable. I given more blood and urine samples in these past couples then most people will give in there lives. I keep asking them to re-check and double check. I have had ultrasounds done on my entire abdominal area. I have had X-Ray's done. I have had a CT scan done of my head because my headaches have become so unbearable and frequent. I was sent for a colonoscopy because I would lay in the bathroom and cry because my nausea was so bad yet everything comes back clear.
Exactly, what I did, every test done was done by my doctors for over a 6 month period, only to be told, "you are in excellent physical shape" - It is all in your head...
You already made a lot of progress, you have been cleared of any physical problems - which is great
I now have a doctor telling me going on anxiety medication is my last option and that he will "fix" me. I'm so hesitant to go on any medication because I truly believe something is wrong with me!
Did you notice how this "came out of nowhere" - you were excited, happy and one day -
My life started coming apart without any notice or indication of past psychological problems.
Make a visit with a Psychiatrist (yes... I know it's scary)
to get a proper diagnoses.
After doing some research - I wouldn't be surprised to find this is caused by a "Biological Problem" - which has to do with your brain chemistry.
I was too afraid to use any medications for about the first 7 years... A lot of Psychotherapy (back then that was the norm), and mental self-talk, yielded very little to nothing in the way of progress, it just got worst for me.
If it is a "Biological Problem" that is causing this, Medication which is now very safe to use under the supervision of your doctor - will allow you to REGAIN CONTROL of your life.
I wish someone had communicated this to me back in 1979
- I lost over 13 years of my life to this Disorder"
Keep asking questions...
Never lose Hope... There are answers - you must never quit - until you find the answer that will "Set you Free" from this Disorder.
Side Note: Medications are a wonderful tool that can be used by your doctor to quickly and safely bring a HALT
to these unnecessary Panic attacks and anxieties - so you can start using in conjunction with your medications, the wonderful CBT and mental therapy and techniques that will PUT YOU BACK IN CONTROL
Let us know if you have questions, there many people here who have gone through the things you are currently experiencing. You are Not Alone