I remember it, like it was yesterday.April 3, 1982 at 7:05 pm, my whole life changed.I was workin and goin to college, had a normal life. That Saturday I spent the whole day with my girlfriend, we were together since 6th grade. I left her house at 6pm to catch the train home, I stopped at the A&P store, while i was on line, this panic feelin came over me, I ran out of the store, back to her house and called my father. We got home, i layed on the couch, I was in full panic, and didn't know why. As the days turned into weeks, and weeks turned into months, I lost my job, quit school, and lost my girlfriend. I couldn't tell her what was happenin, how could i explain somethin that I didn't even understand. I just knew, I didn't want to leave the house, I felt safe. Some time had gone by, and my parents were leavin, now I was freaked out. I asked this girl I knew, if she would marry me, all so I wouldn't be alone, and she did. That lasted a year, I got in contact with my true love, my ex-girlfriend, and explain everythin to her. We have been together ever since, had 2 kids. I missed out on an entire life, I have been imprisoned within myself. I do not drive, in fear of being pulled over and arrested. I am always worried, and scared somethin is goin to happened. I had a TIA in 2006 and signed myself out of the hospital, i could not stay there, i feel safe at home. I live on soup, in fear of chokin on food. I feel most peaceful at night time, it feels safe. After livin this way for 32 years, I feel there is no hope of ever havin a normal life again. I drive myself crazy, tryin to figure out what happened to me that day.