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Quote from: ShawnW on June 12, 2014, 11:13:30 AMThose might be two of the most normal looking hands that I have ever seen. None of that is atrophy.Realy?=) You have no idea how much this comment made my day, thank you for taking the time looking at my pictures=) I can´t explain how reliefed I felt when I saw your post, I was sure you´d say that there was some definite atrophy and that I realy should consult a neurologist. And therein lies the core of my problem, I have a realy messed up perception of how things realy are. In some ways I´m almost schizofrenic, I always have a side of me telling my rational side that someething is wrong (never a little wrong, always critical illness)
Those might be two of the most normal looking hands that I have ever seen. None of that is atrophy.
Okey, so I´ve been doing a little better since my last freak-out. But, the last couple of days I´ve been stuck in an endless spiral of thoughts of hopelessness. It all started with me noticing that I have close to no muscles between my left hand thumb and index finger, all there is is skin and a super small muscle that is soft and unable to flex. This in turn has resulted in a thumb that disclocates easilly, and I can make it "pop" sideways without much effort. I do however notice that there seems to be a muscle between my thumb and index finger when I put my index finger and thumb together, although not nearly as visible as it is on my right hand.Could this be normal? I´ve also meassured the circumference ofmy hands, and the left hand is almost 2,8 centimeters smaller. That sounds like quite alot, right?=/Also, the fingers on my left hand seems to want to stay a little bent all the time when relaxed. It takes quite a lot of force to fully straigthen them out (only left hand fingers though).