Okey, so I´ve been doing a little better since my last freak-out. But, the last couple of days I´ve been stuck in an endless spiral of thoughts of hopelessness. It all started with me noticing that I have close to no muscles between my left hand thumb and index finger, all there is is skin and a super small muscle that is soft and unable to flex. This in turn has resulted in a thumb that disclocates easilly, and I can make it "pop" sideways without much effort. I do however notice that there seems to be a muscle between my thumb and index finger when I put my index finger and thumb together, although not nearly as visible as it is on my right hand.
Could this be normal?
I´ve also meassured the circumference ofmy hands, and the left hand is almost 2,8 centimeters smaller. That sounds like quite alot, right?=/
Also, the fingers on my left hand seems to want to stay a little bent all the time when relaxed. It takes quite a lot of force to fully straigthen them out (only left hand fingers though).