Really feel for you... the "Big Three" - Panic/Anxiety, Depression, OCD seems to come in a cluster in many people.
I know my OCD is "Biological" and not "Psychological" - I had battled mild to more extreme OCD over the years.
I was placed on SSRI and within 35 days - all those "Intrusive Thoughts" disappeared - like somebody just flipped a switch in my Brain!
To prove it to myself, I was tapered myself off the medication, and Yup... within 2 weeks here comes these darn "Intrusive Thoughts" - Went back on the same SSRI - and bang within 3 weeks - no more "Intrusive Thoughts" would enter my mind, I even kept a journal with me to document my thoughts daily. One PILL taken daily
, removed the constant bombardment of "Intrusive Thoughts" that would send me life into a dark spiral of despair, despite years of Mental Therapy.
Now my GAD and Anxiety - took a little more work with a combination of medication and CBT mental therapy = Great Success, but that is another story...
OCD - strikes at the inner core of your being... it makes you not trust yourself anymore...the thought Demonic Possession
was a possibility, in my mind, that I actually went to church and asked my pastor if these "Intrusive Thoughts" that were ugly, vile, violent, were coming from the Devil?
Luckily my pastor - said "NO WAY"
and that should go see a doctor and a Psychiatrist.
I've told my doctor and he said he'd refer me to a physcologist but it could take quite a while. I'm not entirely sure what to do until then :/
In the meantime, it is not the real you - there is a chemical imbalance - and you are good, loving and responsible person with a great future!
You are already making progress in checking in with your Psychiatrist - in the meantime there are a lot of good non-medical therapy and books and techniques to help you !
Hang in there
You have a bright future ahead