I want to thank you for your honesty. I have to admit I agree with what everyone of you are saying. I do need it start professional help for this. My mother and grandmother were/are long time suffers of health anxiety. I am almost certain I have OCD. More of the pure obsession type and my obsession is my health. I feel like that is my obsession because ultimately it's something I can not control. Sure I can eat healthy, exercise and take vitamins however that doesn't insure me I don't end up getting my biggest fear. I have a fear if C just has other people who have debilitating phobias (small spaces, snakes) I can't even hear or see the C word with out panicking inside. I have attached a picture of my family. I am doing this to show to everyone and myself that this why I fear illness, theses beautiful people need me here and well. I'm terrified C could take me away and I would miss seeing my children grow up. My husband would probably find another wife to love and raise our children with. I get ill thinking if that.
Shawn - I fear PC with heartburn because mine radiates to my upper beck. I feel the burn there as well. Mostly on my right side. It's in my chest and back. From my googling beck spin is a symptom along with the stomach pain. However it's not really my stomach it's my chest or maybe the upper pit of the stomach around the top rib area. This alone has me convinced. I do not have even 1 other symptom however that could be next to come.
Marc - that's is what I fear a carcinoid on my pancreas. That is what the young person had however for 6 months he was violently ill. Vomiting daily, white stools, fevers, extreme pain and nausea and extreme weight loss. He also was cured by surgery but even just reading the story sent me into overdrive.