Again, the reason I chose to be blunt is from my experience, it seems the only way to reach in and really have someone acknowledge what you are saying.
We as HA are so hungry for reassurance and kind sympethic words, but that only goes skin deep, in order to reach people you need to dive down deeper and shake them a little bit to "snap out of it"
You are in a vicious cycle, one that can is fed by reassuring words that feeds into the next symptom. In order to break the cycle, you need to first realize your in it, hence my post above.
You need to
1. Accept that your symptoms are caused by HA.
2. choose to do something about these cycle... The first thing would be to stop digging for reassurance, and instead learn how to reassure yourself.
If your hurting on money, check out "It's Not All In Your Head"... A book on Amazon for $15, I've reading it currently and it's helping quite a bit... It's particularly aimed for people with HA and breaking it using CBT.
At this point, I don't believe that posting and getting reassurance is a good thing to do, as it has led you to this point now and your only digging the hole deeper, I'm not saying leave and never come back, I'm saying don't use this as your safety net, learn how to make and use your own safety net.
Seriously, check out the book, it's $15 and could really help you, what have you got to loose? :)
Speaking from experience, and a person who is doing quite a bit better after reading it.