! Truly some people just don't understand. Some days are good .. some days are soso and other days just stink!
I'm proud of myself for a few good days that I worked through the anxiety; like the event I put on that just became more informal than the informal that was planned; but I didn't let it get to me. Which actually I didn't even notice until afterwords.
I think what put me in good spirits were the people I were around and them just all having fun! When there is soo much positive energy around you, you just can't help but pick some of it up
It also kind of helped that my ex was there and we have continued being friends and well bad part of it was all those feelings of hanging out with him all came back but I had to remind myself that it is what it is that nothing will change.
Another day that was great was me driving to my massage therapist on my own!
My grandma just recently moved away after my grandpa's passing, and I had her to lean on to. But she was super proud of me when I called her and told her I did it! Positive re-enforcement is all I think we need, in some ways!
Some days I sit here and I wonder where everything in life is going and I feel stuck, like nothing will improve and I beat myself over it. Then other days I wake up and I'm ready to face the outdoors and just enjoy the sun on my face.
I haven't been food shopping yet, which is the toughest thing for me. I really need to. No one is willing to help with that anymore; they all think i need to get over it and just deal already. I just don't feel ready.
But little steps are key. Just one day out with one or two friends helps.
I avoid being in public like I would avoid the plague. I tend to feel better at night as well; more so than during the day *shrugs*
Its funny I can find myself pushing positiveness onto others but for myself not so much unless I conquer something.. hmm Lunatone
! I agree, there will always be relapses. I kind of wonder though if anxiety is part of impatience? I don't know. I feel like the counseling wasn't going anywhere for me. I feel like sometimes I need someone to hold my hand and walk me through it.
I hope it becomes less scary.. fear encompasses me very easily.
I ramble too and loose my points =) It happens! Lol
I wish it didn't improve slowly!