I had my worst anxiety/panic attack at the gas station one night, I got lightheaded, my heart was racing, I was shaking and couldn't think straight. Since then I haven't been able to go to the store to get food; thankfully friends have helped me by going to the store for me but I think people are at their wit with it. (It's been five months going on 6; yes this started on New Years Eve; probably a bit before then too).
I went to a festival where I camped and I ended up getting sick the next morning with vertigo; found out a week later my ear was all inflamed and had fluid building up in my ear; that hopefully was the cause of it!
Hi Envirogirl ,
Many of us can relate - been there before, yes it is more common than you think.
You are only 27 years old, I wish I had these resources and people to help me when I was going through this.
You appear to have had a full blown PANIC ATTACK - since you are now having fears of going to the grocery store (sounds familiar...experienced the same thing...)
The biggest fear I had, and it appears most of have - the fear to take medications! This outdated and inaccurate stigma
has to go, it cost me 13 years of my life because I didn't want to appear "weak, dependent and stupid" to myself and to others.
This is the #1 fear you need to confront, don't fear medications - they can be life savers... You are now on your 6th Month with no relief - it is time to see a doctor or a psychiatrist as soon as possible, not necessarily to get medications, but you owe it to yourself to know what your options are, and that you get properly diagnosed.
Not having insurance, etc, was the same excuses I used in the past to avoid my fears, but there are resources available to you - don't allow the excuse - 'I don't have Insurance' stop you from seeking the help you need.
Some people eventually learn to deal with this "chemical imbalance" through natural means - CBT, Self-talk, etc (I did this for over 10 years), and some people will take advantage of awesome medications out there that can I consider nothing short of "miracle pills" that allow you to regain control of your life (Today, I use medication to control a "chemical imbalance" that is not my fault, and I wish I would have faced this fear instead of losing all those years of my life).
It is always your choice! You have the right and power to do what is best for you.
Also, I noticed you mentioned VERTIGO - which in itself can cause inner-ear problem that can trigger a panic attack. An idea you might want to to consider to trying a motion sickness tablet like Bonine (much better than others, less drowsiness) - for the next week, this helped lower the intensity of my panic attacks so I could manage them and keep on working and functioning. You can view a post I created last week, that helped me get at least a 50% control of my anxiety using Motion Sickness tables from Walgreens, or Walmart (they are non psychiatric drugs) - but they truly helped me in a pinch....
We are all here to help you ... we have a great group of caring individuals in this forum, make sure to take advantage the experience and expertise of these wonderful people.
You will be doing great in no time !!