So, its been a few months of dealing with anxiety and I havent been able to work; I tried doing some little stuff at work but even that made me anxious. I had my worst anxiety/panic attack at the gas station one night, I got lightheaded, my heart was racing, I was shaking and couldn't think straight. Since then I haven't been able to go to the store to get food; thankfully friends have helped me by going to the store for me but I think people are at their wit with it. (It's been five months). My boss is giving me that time I need until I can get back to working, but I'm not making anything and I'm living off of what I have saved. I live in my mothers house for free but she is even at her wits with that as well. (I'm 27)
Some days I just want my life back, pre-anxiety and other days I'm okay; but theres more bad days than good.
I don't really go anywhere because of the anxiety but I try to go if I can to just leave my house for a lil while.
I went to a festival where I camped and I ended up getting sick the next morning with vertigo; found out a week later my ear was all inflamed and had fluid building up in my ear; that hopefully was the cause of it!
Since then my anxiety has elevated a bit.
I get that flight or fight mode, my body feels off.
I am now eating healthy; its been going on two weeks of eating almost everything non processed and actually making dinner each night. ( I skipped dinner once and just ate cereal, wasn't that smart, felt crappy the next day)
I'm continuing to eat better but I can't seem to push through the anxiety and just panic when it happens.
I went to go biking yesterday and I started going down the trail and felt off so I made my friend turn around and go back home; which was only a few mins down the road.
When I went to the doctor, my BP is normal 116/72 or even 120/82 (I may be off a few numbers but that is what it was near) and this is with me feeling anxious.
Next weekend I have a little event I am in charge of, that I've been planning for a few weeks and some.I thought I'd be through all this anxiety stuff but I'm not.
I need to be well for next weekend and I'm scared of being anxious and freaking out or something. Maybe I can just stuff my face all day with food constantly .. I don't know. Help!
Sorry for all the writing, had to get it all out.