Long story short, I've been struggling with my job which gives me no small amount of stress, anxiety, and depression, all of which I am glad to say I am managing with a very supportive doctor and counsellor.
I work in the Aerospace and Defence industry as a CMM programmer (specifically for Zeiss Calypso software), and my workplace environment is highly toxic and extremely stressful. My company culture is completely a$$ backwards. I could write a GRR Martin length novel on how much I hate it there, but I am honestly done whining.
Bottom line is, I do like the work I do. Or at least I think I do. But I definitely don't want to be at my current company anymore, especially if I have to take pills just to keep my stress level manageable.
The problem is that this career is that it is quite a niche market. Around the city I live there are only about 6 to 10 companies that use this specialized software, all of which already have people filling this role for them. It's not a short-term position, it's actually pretty much a guaranteed for-life career if you're good at it.
I've started looking for other jobs, but there was only one in my city that wanted a CMM programmer. I've also started looking for administrative assistant types of jobs out of sheer desperation. I want to get out of my current workplace that badly. I've even considered going back to college or university for something, but I don't know what.
A friend at work suggested trying to apply for this job outside of my province, since I have found some that are looking for programmers. I haven't been doing this long, about 8 months, but I'm starting to consider maybe moving to a different city and start over since there is nothing for me here. I don't talk to my toxic family members. I don't connect very well with my friends. There is literally nothing to do here and the city does suck, the slums and horrible weather. I don't "love" my work, but I definitely hate my current situation.
I guess I just want to know what other people think. I don't want to uproot my life, but I definitely want to make something of myself and I can't do it here in this dismal middle-of-nowhere-city in Canada. I did just find my support net for my mental health, a family doctor, a counsellor, and some fairly decent friends. But I don't want to live here forever, and I definitely want to be happy again.