Yet another thread about my speech issues, but they are realy starting to drive me towards the edge. Iīve had anxiety (GAD, major depression, OCD and God knows what for years) but Iīve always been able to take comfort in my speech, I.e. I could mask most of my issues just by appearing happy etc. This is no longer possible, I constantly slur my words (especially longer ones), I stumble over almost every word (as if my mind and my mouth arenīt in synch) and to top it all off Iīve started to have serious swallowing issues. I constantly find it hard to swallow everything from liquid to solid food, I constantly get food stuck in the back of throat (like a lump that I canīt swallow), I have an almost constant shortness of breath and the list just goes on and on.
Sometimes it feels as if I have to much saliva, sometimes as if I donīt have enough. I have intermittent numbness of my lips, and sometimes they feel "unresponsive".
What scares me the most is the combination of quite severe speech problems and swallowing problems (and tongue twitching) with semi-constant muscle cramps in hands and feet and intermittent perceived weakness in one arm. Iīve been around on the hypochondria forum long enough to know the cardinal signs of Bulbar ALS=/
I canīt even get out a single sentence without having to think about how the word is pronounced, and more often than not I even fail to articulate the words in my head. Everything feels like a blur, and I am actually scared to death about this. I am actually almost unable to speak, I have to constantly go over things to say in my head, and sometimes it feels as if I speak faster than my mouth can keep up with. On top of it all some sounds seems harder to get out, and sometimes I almost have a lisp (which Iīve never had before). All other physical symptoms Iīve had fade in comparison to this ones=(
I doesnīt seem to have any actual weakness in my tongue though, but I guess itīs just a matter of time before that comes along...
Is there anyone who can even slightly relate to this?