I still haven't tried the valium. Hell, I had a mini freak out last night over a b6 tab I took to try and curb the nausea from the anxiousness and the zoloft; so the nausea got worse, lol. I've only eaten about one meal's worth of food over the last 3 or 4 days. Took me an hour to choke down a pack of ramen's last night. I'm having a hard time taking the zoloft too, mini attack every dose. It's strange, when I was younger I did a lot of drugs and drinking, it was no big deal. Now, I freak out over a high dose vitamin. wtf!?
On the upside, I killed the interview though. I find out tomorrow if I got the job [which is most likely] and when I start. The good thing about this job is that its cooking. For most people, its a high stress job that would be a problem. For me, its fantastic, I'm so comfortable cooking, plus, it gives me something fast paced to focus on, there's no time to freak out when you have a dining room full of people to feed.
I want to take a moment to thank everybody. This forum has actually helped me out more than anything else right now. I see that I'm not a freak, I was able to match all of my symptoms to just the anxiety/panic instead of some mystery illness, etc.