Hello! I'm new here. I hope I'm posting this in the right section.
I've had depersonalization issues for 2 years or so. Never been to a therapist. The depersonalization hasn't been too bad for the last year or so. I learned to control it better (which basically means not thinking about it too much, and distracting myself constantly).
In February, I had a very nasty case of the flu. I had a high fever for several days, and on the 4th day, I had a horrible panic attack. After I got my wits about me, I knew it was a panic attack. I had previously had a couple of panic attacks due to medicines/drugs. I hadn't had any in about 2 1/2 years. I recovered from the flu, but the panic attacks and anxiety didn't stop. My depersonalization also came back, a little different from before. A large amount of the time, everything seems absolutely, fundamentally weird, unreal, and wrong. I can't focus much of the time, and any large amount of stress or stimuli overwhelms me and makes me have a panic attack. I used to be an avid coffee drinker, but now I can barely handle half a cup without having panic attacks.
The panic attacks are the absolute worst part, though. In between attacks, I often feel that I'll never have another one. But when I do have the next one, they completely drain me. I can usually stop them before they become severe, but it's really difficult sometimes. The ones that I get in my sleep are the worst, since they're already in full force by the time I wake up. After I have one, I'm utterly drained and "foggy" feeling for days. I constantly feel like I'll have another. I had three of them in one night three days ago, and I still feel like crap today.
I haven't been having as many for the last month or two, thankfully. Sometimes I'll go a full week or two without one. Right after I had the flu, I was having them almost every day. Was it a coincidence that I started getting this right after I got sick? Why do I still get them sometimes? What can I do?
Thank you for reading this.