Hello, Name is Josh, this is my first post on this site. So I'm going to give some quick history before my question. I have been having panic / anxiety for 5 years now. I mainly have 2 fears, "I'm going to have a panic attack" and "Something is wrong, I'm going to die" (the 2nd one is 90% of the time related to breathing, choking, feeling of pain in throat or side of neck, and can't take deep breaths). I take 40 mg of prozac every day, and 0.5 mg klopinn
So this week, I got cold, and took the entire last week off work. I did not have the energy to fight the cold and panic. Today is my first day back to work, and I have about a 30-45 min drive to work everyday (Traffic, and stop lights some times trigger my panic). On the way to work today, I freaked out bad, on a scare of 0-10 it was about a 8 or 9. I almost stopped and went to the hospital. I know it's just panic, and I tell myself, it's just panic and it should go away soon. I try and focus on my breathing, but then I notice how shallow I'm breathing and I feel like I can't take a breath. Like my throat is closing and I then I get a pain on the left side of my neck. My backup plan to hospital, is to call my wife to come pick me up, but that is not always an option. And I don't like to do that, as they say that is avoidance. So I made it to work, it was VERY hard to make it tho the entire drive. Now that I'm here, most of the panic is gone, but I just have a LOT of anxiety now. I'm worried about the drive home tonight, I'm worried about not getting this under control, and I need to be able to focus for my job (software developer). So that leads me to this, how can I calm down AFTER a panic attack so I can go back to normal life for a while?
Part of me just wants the suffering to stop. Part of me knows there is a way to beat this. I just loose confidence as it's been over 5 years now, and I don't feel like I'm making any progress.