I will start off by introducing myself, My name is Alexandra and for the past 2 years i have been dealing with some very strange and crazy things. I have always struggled with anxiety and depression but 1.5 years ago i was experiancing some pretty random toes numbness (always cold) so i wernt to the doctors and he took blood work, well between getting my bloodwork done and waiting for my results i started panicking about being HIV pos. I lost 20 pounds from not eating and was a total nightmare to deal with. It took me half a year to build up the courage to go and get tested, the test result was negative.
Recently, i developed a tingling pins and needles in my foot. I googled it and have since been convinced i have MS, it is not uncommon for a girl of 30 who lives in canada to develop it. The tingling spreads up to my knee. It does not interfere with walking at all, it seems to get a bit better when i walk, but it is there still, i sometimes jog and never experiance any problems but that does not mean anything. Sometimes it with tingle when i walk.
About a week ago i had an infected wisdom tooth extracted and about 2 days after that became incredibly dizzy only when i sit down, it feels like there is a big weight on my head and it becomes a bit numb itself, i am also having neck pain. I went to the dentist and he told me i had no infection and i was healing great, so again my symptoms can be attributed to MS. I am absolutely terrified i have something wrong with me. I have a doctors appt in 12 days to talk to him about my symptoms. I also am getting eye pain that feels like it is starting in my sinuses and causes eyelash feeling in my eyes and them to water and become sore. I have developed a muscle twitch in my leg too, it does not hurt. I am so scared, i hate being alone. I am on the verge of tears all the time. I just simply cannot live like this. I thought about checking myself into the hospital and asking for a complete body exam. my fiance who is getting really fed up with me tells me to just relax. I have a bottle of lorazapam but it makes me itch like crazy and it turns me into a nasty person.
I am pretty scared and worried about my health. I am not in the best of shape. I dont eat terrible, i dont smoke or do drugs and i do not drink at all. I am just full of constant panick nd i cant find a reason for my physical symptoms other then MS or a brain tumor.
Thats the panicky side of me, the other side of me is a mother and a fiance, I train dogs also, I own 3, i have done alot of rescue work. I love schutzhund, my GSD is from czech lines but he is a rescue boy and is nervy and does not have a alot of drive for a working dog. I cant find a motivator strong enough to make him want to work, right now we are working on contact heal and he has started bite work with a sleeve. I honestly cannot see him ever going to trial, earning his BH lol its more about the fun and learning.