A paradox indeed! Same as when I was going through a certain cancer fear, I was afraid to stick to my diet, because if I actually LOST WEIGHT, I would attribute it to "cancer" instead of my 900 calorie per day diet and the calories I was burning with relentless stressing LOL. We HA-ers are an odd breed, but (amongst our small, disturbed group) we are VERY much alike. I'm now 49, but back when I was 32, I was running 3 miles per day, playing tennis on the weekends and lifting weights. I began having electrical buzzing sensations, twitches, perceived weakness in my legs and would continuously examine my arms, legs and hands in the mirror to see if one were smaller than the other (of COURSE one was smaller! everybody has one leg/foot/hand that is larger than the other!) When I began noticing that I was having trouble emptying my bladder, I hit the roof. After multiple visits to the neurologists and GP, I was finally found to have 1) Benign fasciculation syndrome and 2) Fibromyalgia. It all began 17 years ago... gee, I thought I'd be dead by now! By the Grace of God, I've managed to remain relatively healthy, work full time, and am surrounded by loving family and friends. Do I still have major set-backs -- ABSOLUTELY. But I know they will pass. Be Blessed!