I'm new to this but I'm going to give it a go. So I haven't been diagnosed with any disorder (I also haven't seen anybody about one), although I'm starting to worry that my anxiety is more than normal.
For example, I just got a new lifeguarding contract (I've been a casual lifeguard for 2 years now), and immediately I practiced blowing my whistle every hour, of everyday for the past week- despite being completely aware of how to use one. I cannot sleep and every day/night I run through simple scenarios in my head e.g. what if I can't put the slide out, what if people don't hear me shout etc.
This is just one example, but often I can find myself kept up all night worrying about simple things, i.e. how to greet my friend- do I hug them? What do I do? These simple questions can have me break out in a sweat, my heart racing and frequent crying and scratching. Scratching is something I am really worried about as recently it seems to be my go-to answer when I'm stressed or extremely anxious.
Can anyone offer any advice on the situation?
I also find it difficult because none of my family or friends are aware of the situation since I appear perfectly happy in person. I just want to be 'normal', especially since I'm on a uni course involving presentations and teaching (I feel that I try to avoid uni in order to skip presentations, or make myself as physically low as possible in lectures to avoid any possibility of speaking, likewise with training at work, I often tend to physically feel sick and have an upset stomach on whole staff training days). Thanks, B.