Hey there. I should start by saying I suffer from GAD. I'd like to keep what my past sufferings from this disorder have caused and focus on the recent happenings.
Late last year/early this year I have made a lot more friends which has lead to me going out a lot more and enjoying myself. I felt drinking was like an escape, I could have an awful week but have the weekend of drinking to get me by. I'd feel so much more confident, and go crazy and have a brilliant time with everyone.
It of course came with its downfalls. I'd sometimes go too far and get so emotional about the silliest of things. Last week there hit me like a tonne of bricks. Every little thing I would be worried about I would shove to the back of my head and I'd try to put on this "I don't care" attitude.
Last week I got so drunk that I crumbled completely and I have felt so lost ever since. I feel like I want to curl up in my bed and stay there. I feel like I've lost all my self confidence and I'm worried about everything.
I've been making myself see friends, going for long walks and telling myself if I keep positive everything will be okay. I don't want to spiral out of control with anxiety like I have done in the past but I don't want to be relying on drinking every weekend either.
I just wanted to know has anyone else been through this? If so how did you get through it?