It's funny (not haha funny) but I'm experiencing a setback this week with Prozac after having been on prozac for 6 weeks and having felt basically great for three weeks! We're setback buddies!
Coincidentally I had my monthly psychiatric session yesterday and I said I was bummed that I felt my depression and OCD creeping back after three weeks. He laughed and literally said, "Are you insane?!" I said, "Well, kind of. I mean, look where I am!" Then he said that it's unrealistic not to expect ups and downs. It's part of recovery. He said that having three great weeks is awesome, but it would be crazy to experience three great weeks of perfect weather and then say, "Well, I guess it's going to be perfect weather from now on and forever!"
I haven't had a genuine panic attack in about three years, or maybe even four, but I remember them all too well. I didn't need meds until my OCD and MDD were diagnosed, along with the ever present GAD of course, but I can say that I gradually overcame my panic attacks, and you will too. And even though depression robs me of hope, I can say that it too is temporary. I don't feel it, but I know that it's true.
I think that setbacks are normal. This one will end and we'll have learned that we can handle the setbacks. This is my first real setback since I started recovering, and the silver lining is that when it ends, we'll both have overcome our first real setback. And so the next time we have a setback we'll go into it with the knowledge, "Oh, this is a setback. I'm not falling into the abyss. It will pass," and it won't be as frightening. I know that for me, the main reason I'm having a setback is that I'm afraid I'm going ALL THE WAY BACK. I'm afraid that my three weeks of happiness were an illusion. But like you, during that time, I felt "Normal." Normal because that's the way I usually feel. Which means that this setback is the aberration. We'll get through it. It's only temporary.