Hey everyone. My names zack , im from northern California and im 26 years old. I have seen this site before , an have typically been going on a different anxiety site for support but not much responses on there , so I came across this site and it looks way better. I've dealt with anxiety issues since my senior year in high school. It all started with having a bad panic attack from smoking marijuana(I was 18 an barely started experimenting with it). After that anxiety has been in my life since. It's been pretty constant since 09 and I've been able to manage it but have had a couple dark periods where a anxiety attack creeps up an it throws me into depression and it takes awhile to get back to myself. I had recently back in april had a very random anxiety attack that I didn't even see coming. Had managed it for at least 3 years, but I was laid off in December and I think it just had built itself up and hit me hard. So for the past month I've had a real difficult time with my anxiety, then a couple weeks into the bad anxiety, depression crept in and that seemed to numb the anxiety an I was more focused on the depression. Depression is horrible, I felt hopeless everyday, not all day but most the days, my life felt completely different and I was afraid. I didn't have health insurance and I was so desperate to get help with this. I had experienced this same kind of depression in 09 after another anxiety attack but I managed to get out of that after finding work, so I was afraid this was happening again. So I eventually got medi cal (Medicaid) and finally am going to see a mental health professional who specializes in anxiety/depression and i'm hoping this will help me to manage my anxiety issues better, because I've only been prescribed Ativan to help with it an even though it might help it doesn't help a lot and I've always wanted to talk with a specialist and be diagnosed and see what's going on and what I can do. I recently started eating healthier, going to the gym, started working after sooo many years of saying to myself I will get in better health and shape an maybe that'll help me not feel so much anxiety. i'm also temping at a job, which ill admit sucks but i'm kind of getting use to it now after about a month an my depression has subsided a little this week. I'm just hoping for the best because this past month has been a rollercoaster ride from hell and just want to get back to myself, possibly even better. I hope to get to know some of you on here , I know anxiety sucks but all we can do is try our best to manage it and live better happier lives.