I've been doing rather well lately, but yesterday my newly awakened worries about melanoma went out of control to the point where I can barely look myself in the mirror since I'm obsessing over my moles.
So what has lymphoma to do with this? I haven't been overly concerned with lymphoma before, but yesterday while I was freaking out about melanoma I felt a small lump under my ear, with another one situated in the fold between the ear and the skull. So when I suddenly woke up in the middle of the night with my forhead, neck and chest covered in sweat I almost panicked.
I got up from bed to urinate, but on my way to the bathroom I felt dizzy and weak in my lower back and legs. It felt as if I weren't in control of my motions, and this added to my panic. Back in bed I had the feeling that I was about to suffer a fully fledge panic attack, but I did some breathing exercises to calm down and eventually I fell asleep clutched to my fiancee, only to wake up a couple of hours later with more sweat on my neck and forhead. I fell asleep again and woke up this morning without any more sweat.
Today there's a small blush on the skin below the ear where the first lump is. Could this be a swollen lymph node or just a pimple or inflamed follicle? What is a swollen lymph node supposed to feel like? I refuse to google in this state of mind. Although I'm trying to persuade myself that these symptoms could all be derived from anxiety, I can't shake off the thoughts of lymphoma or possibly melanoma. Also, would lymphoma show up on a CBC or reveal itself in other ways?