Will try keep this short, but over time I've come to realise what my problems are and cause of anxiety/panic attacks. I cannot let people see my face in daylight, even family, this caused severe anxiety which leads to panic attacks etc. If I do go out sometimes in daylight I have to have a hood up and hide my face as much as possible, even trying to go to the shop is a massive challenge still and usually prefer to do it when it rains so I blend in more with society, and generally around any people anywhere I have severe anxiety (If I go to the doctors I have to be put in a room on my own or at least away from the waiting room)
I often have bad depression, and worry very much about all sorts, mentality not stable and avoid being out in daylight and stuff for many years around people. If no one was around at all, no problem go outside in day.
Anyway, I can go away on holiday with a family member in 3 weeks as one of them as pulled out, this will be with one family member, who like said, am even anxious about in the day (seeing my face in the daylight etc)
I am going to do it, but I don't know how I will cope when there etc. My doctor has given me some diazepam for the 4 hour plane flight as I just think the worse is going to happen, so hopefully that will help. The hotel we going to is quiet and one part of the beech is busy but the other side quiet, I don't know if I will be able to go out the hotel for the first day or two, I may have to catch some sun on the balcony and then try go outside after, because I would like to catch some sun and look healthier before going to the outside world.
This is going to take a hell of allot for me to do this and is by far the biggest challenge of my life, but I need it to help me get better and healthy again, however, even trying not to think about all the problems I will face, I will be thinking about them leading up to leaving, and I'm going to be very nervous and anxious, which as you know causes many problems with health, any advise and tips of what will help me handle this? or do I just need positive support to push me to do it?
Am just crapping myself about being out of my comfort zone and thrown right into the deep end, because I don't want to have a mental break down while there because I'm not able to handle the situation.