For the past six months, I have constantly been on alert for any signs of psychosis, schizophrenia, or any other mental illnesses that people would deem "crazy". I have been diagnosed with multiple anxiety disorders, and every therapist I go to seems to think it's something different- I have been diagnosed with panic disorder, hypochondria, and obsessive compulsive disorder. Normally, I'm constantly worried about vomiting (emetephobia), but when I was put on Zoloft for my anxiety, it shifted to a major hypervigilance surrounding my mental health, as I felt "crazy" on the Zoloft. Although most likely unrealistic, I feel that every single day I will break down and go completely psychotic, due to all the stress, anxiety, and depression I've had lately. I have found it extremely difficult to find any solace and reassurance that I'm mentally healty (despite my anxiety), even though my therapist tells me each week that I'm too sane- I just find it really hard to believe for some reason, because something has constantly felt "off" in my brain for the past six months. I constantly worry that I will lose control or somehow commit ***** (I don't mean that I want to commit *****, I just mean that I worry constantly that I will snap and do so, but of course I wouldn't even dare make a plan to *****, so it's pretty unrealistic, I just get these horrible intrusive thoughts from my OCD that present themselves in the form of "I want to *****", followed by me constantly evaluating and ruminating over my thoughts). I have this ominous feeling that I will soon lose it, that I will no longer be able to attend school, function normally, and be put into a mental hospital. Please help, I'm absolutely terrified!!