Hi everyone! Im a 15 year old boy, and have recently (for the past 2 months) gone through absolute hell. I was questioning life, why we exist, I had Depersonalization, Derealization, bouts of hopelessness, I felt like I was the only person in the world, I had strong feelings of dread and I felt completely pointless, and I was scared of my own body and mind. But now, it has calmed down a bit.. And now Im left with a "weird" feeling. I'll be doing an every-day activity (like writing) and all of a sudden I'll be like "wow, this is weird." Earlier today I was hanging a potted plant on my front porch for my mom, and all of a sudden I was like "wow, why am I doing this, life is pointless, it doesn't matter in the end". It's exhausting to feel weird and pointless about LIFE itself.. Like what else is there? I hate my mind for doing this to me... I feel like the life I was living in earlier was fake and all of a sudden I've woken up and realized how futile and pointless it all is. I feel super-conscious of my existence, and depressed.