I'm a new member here and it's comforting to see so many people with anxiety like me, and to see everyone supporting eachother!
I have this thing where there are certain phrases or situations where I cannot seem to push words out, sometimes i'll be talking and i can see the word in my head, and i can hear it, but when i try to say the word i cannot push it out. This has become an everyday occurrence for me and it has had a big impact of my social life. When i come to the point of not being able to speak i tend to say "oh what's it called again" Or something else to just try and make myself not look weird.
There are certain times where i find it particularly hard to talk like on the phone. 'Hello' is a word that i have trouble saying almost all the time, so when i recieve a phonecall from an unknown number, i tend to just leave it to ring. I also find myself thinking about what i'm going to say, over and over again. And when it comes to the point of me saying it, i usually end up messing my words up, or saying none atall. It has also become problematic when raising my voice. For example; when at a friends house and there is music playing, if a friend tries to talk to me from one side of the room to the other i am very short worded and seem anti social but i genuinely want to talk and be enthusiastic.
There are certain phrases like the 'Eh' sound in hello and the 'Ah' sound in around. When saying these it feels like my throat closes sometimes.
Some days I seem to be ok and may only stutter once or twice, but other days it feels like my throat is constantly tight and i find it hard to talk atall. I have found alcohol helps me speak more clearly.
I have had this problem for a long time now and i am wondering if anyone else has experienced the same thing as me. It's effecting my social life and everyday life and would like to be able to get some advice on how to solve this annoying situation.