So I've had this bad hypochondria for about a year now. I absolutely hate it!. I can't go a day without thinking I have c**cer. I will censor the word as I hate saying and typing it. My day to day life is pretty normal from most people's point of view, I work, I socialize but on the inside, I'm convinced I only have a few months to live at the most. I've been to so many doctor's appointments seeking reassurance that I am healthy as I should be and always have been but its never enough.
No matter how much I may try to ignore the scary thoughts I have, I see something on tv about the disease or something on the radio or on some poster in a public bathroom or even just getting medication from the chemist with the stuff all over the bag about the same thing. I cannot escape it!!!. When I go to the doctor, she tells me "you're very young and the disease you think you have is really uncommon at your age...I will admit I am guilty of over searching online but it does happen to people my age. The most recent thing I've been worrying about is c**cer of the bowel, It wasn't AS bad until I found out about Stephen Sutton(RIP) he just lost his battle with it today and he was only 19(diagnosed with it at 15) then there are a few others my age who have been diagnosed with c**cer oof the bowel as well.
I just fear that if the doctor keeps telling me I'm too young and stuff, what if there is something like that inside me? I don't want to find out 6 months down the line I was right the whole time and get told is incurable....I don't want to die!!!!. My doctor recently prescribed me fluoxetine(Prozac) to try and see if that helps my anxiety, has anyone here had any success with it?? I really just can't handle anymore of these horrible thoughts, they are making me feel so tired and lethargic and I just want it to go away!!!!!! I did nothing to deserve this horrible nasty life.