Well I've let myself get into full blown panic. Again. This time it's over breast cancer. I've had an occasional pain in my left breast for a week or so. Today it feels more than occasional. I think it is happening in both sides but I'm not sure... I know that sounds nuts but I am so focused on it being the left side and I am analyzing everything happening on that side, so I just can't be sure that it's the same type of pain I am noticing on both. It's sort of an achy feeling, like a muscle pain would be, and much of it is, in fact, at the top of my breasts where they meet my chest - where the pectoral muscles are I guess? I also have some muscle tension in my neck and shoulder on the left side. Could poor posture and stress cause something like this maybe??
I am going to the gynecologist June 6 for my annual appointment. I am afraid by then I will be a complete basket case. Really, I already am by most people's standards!
I guess I am just looking for any words of wisdom or advice. Intellectually, I know that this is unlikely to be anything worrisome. I've searched this forum and seen plenty of women say they have breast pain for various reasons. There's no lump (that I can find anyway) so I'm trying to remember that, too.
I wish I could unlock why this happens to me. Why I get so insane and other people manage their worries with a little more perspective. I can't figure it out and it's so hard to stop when I don't know why I do this to myself