I've been getting panic attacks off and on for almost 3 years now. I can go months of feeling great, no issues then I will get hurt working out or sick or something which throws me off track and I find myself waking up in the middle of the night consumed by panic. This latest bout has been pretty rough because there's no real external thing I can pin it on, the only stressor is that I am moving at the end of the month (and work as usual).
My attacks constantly revolve around the fear that I am going schizophrenic, or manic, or severely depressed. That nothing will get better and I'll have to be hospitalized or I'll hurt someone or myself and let everyone down. My fear revolves around those central themes, and I can't seem to dig myself out of it. I have this pervasive worry that I am loosing my mind and I just can't, I can't let everyone down like that. I have people relying on me.
I am against taking any medication so I'm looking for CBT or other natural intervention techniques. I don't want to take meds because I was a drug abuser and drinker for a few years and I just don't want to run any more chemicals through my body. I guess I've got a fear of medication because I abused prescription drugs and I feel that I can manage without them.
Thanks for the help, going through a rough patch here.