Hey guys. I haven't been on here in awhile. A lot going on. Not sure if this is the right forum to post in, but since GAD is my biggest demon, I thought maybe this problem is related to it somehow. Lately one of my problems that has been bothering me is how upset I get when I'm around certain members of my family. I get easily frustrated and a little angry. And I'm not really sure why. I'm not violent or anything, I just get easily annoyed and then I start snapping at the person that has upset me, and then I feel horrible for being such a brat.
I can give a (sort of) example: A family member asks if I want to hang out with them. I say sure, and we go hang out, but as I'm talking to this family member about some stuff that I'm going through they say something, usually innocuous, but I guess it rubs me the wrong way, and I get mad, and I get short with them, and snap when I have to answer questions, and the whole time I'm wondering to myself, "Why am I feeling this way? Why can't I just let it go?" I feel horrible. I feel like I don't want to be around my family and I feel like they don't want to be around me, but I don't want things to be like this.
Has anyone else had these kinds of mood swings? Is there a way you deal with it? Any advice?
I just feel so guilty. I feel like they must hate me because I am such a brat to be around.