Okay, im here to talk about a sort of odder fear i've had.
Ever sense i had developed OCD i've had all sorts of anxiety from hearing about "Crazy" people who snap and go on a killing spree and kill themselves etc. I always fear im going to become like these people. Another fear i have is the fear of becoming the next hitler, because i share similar traits to him, one of them being my ocd. (The traits are extremely minor, one particular physical one that is sort of awkward to speak about. i wasn't really abused physically as a child, i dont have a constant urge to control people, infact i believe people should just live life as they please without having harm done to them, because life is hard for everyone and we're all just trying our best to get by)
Im slightly paranoid but that's because of my anxiety. I don't think people are out to get me or anything, but im slightly jumpy when i shouldn't be due to my anxiety. It all started happening when i used to walk home as a kid and had (And still do to some extent) This overwhelming fear of getting shot in a drive by or killed from behind without even knowing.
I know these fears shouldn't be taken too seriously, but whenever the name gets mentioned i always go back to my "Magical" thinking, assuming its a sign that im going to become him. Once again, i know this isn't physically possible, but it scares me highly.
I fear that one day i'll go down the same path, try to do something i love, get rejected, and blame society Etc. I dont want this to happen obviously, but i was wondering if anyone else could relate/ Share stories because i feel really alone when i talk about this type of stuff, and im too scared to talk to my parents as i know they'll just laugh or probably insult me for thinking this way.