I'm a 26 year old male. I don't ever have any caffeine, drugs or alcohol in my system. Unfortunately I do smoke cigarettes. And, I suffer from severe anxiety. I've had anxiety for probably about 6 or 7 years. I've had my good times and my bad times. Well, right now I'm going through a bad time. My worst by far. It's been going on for about four months. I live in Ohio. And the weather this winter was brutal! The worst I think we've ever had in my lifetime. So, I started not wanting to go anywhere because of it. Now, even after winter.. I have trouble even getting into a car. I've become agoraphobic. My first ever panic attack that I can remember happened in a car. Ever since then.. cars have freaked me out. That's just one layer of my story. The second layer is.. I have health anxiety. I haven't been to a doctor yet, even though I'd love to go. I'm just afraid of the outcome and the car. I'm constantly worried about my heart. It's the worst when I wake up in the morning. My heart races and races. And, I'm constantly checking my heart rate. In the morning it tend to be in between 100 - 130 while still laying in bed. It stays around 100 - 120 throughout the day with no physical activity at all. I've become bedridden. Mainly because upon standing my heart rate tends to jump pretty high. But, it only seems to happen during my worst parts of the day. I do have my good times though. And those seem to be at night mostly. My heart rate tends to go back to normal 70 - 100. And I don't seem to have too much trouble falling asleep at night.
I guess I just wanted to get my issues out there. Maybe this will help people. And let them know that they don't suffer alone. We all have our issues here. And I know I'm newly signed up. But, I've been reading a lot on here for the past few weeks. I'm willing to talk to you if you need a friend, someone to spill your guts to. We could all use that I'm sure.