The good thing about a site like this is that we all understand each other. Strangers though we may be. Maybe start a blog or a journal and write your every thought down. It would be a bit like doing self therapy. The more we hold things in the more it can bring us down. It is always best to get it out there one way or the other. You are not letting anybody down at all. That is something people with anxiety think a lot of the time. So they stay silent. Which only makes their problems even worse. I have no idea if you are in college or work. If college I would suggest looking for someone in the college you could talk to. Most places have them. If in work, It might be good to look around for a therapist. I know a lot of people don't have that kind of money to hand out. There are some places that are cheaper. Maybe they are based around people helping other people. Work on a donation basis. Just somewhere you go and talk. Express how you really feel inside. But we always here for you too.