I have to share this

[EllaJean]

So,
I've had health anxiety since I was a kid, probably when I was diagnosed w/ seizure disorder and I was consumed w/ the fear of having a seizure. Even though the meds controlled them extremely well, I was already an anxious child with a not so great family situation and I started obsessing that I had other illnesses. As a kid, I thought I had frost bite, heart disease, stroke, cancer, you name it. I have kids; and noticed that my HA subsided after having them. Maybe it was that  Ifocused my attention on them, and didnt worry about myself. Throughout my life, the HA has come and gone but I did learn how to deal w/ it and it didn't seem as debilitating as it was in my late teens, early 20's.

Well, I've been a victim of poor diet, exhaustion, anxiety (tons of life stressors) and lack of self care for the past year or so. I've done my part to ignore my own health. Amongst all of this, I had a couple of minor symptoms--pain in my side when I exercised (I just started exercising again) and one day I woke up and my ankle was swollen--mind you, I've been eating fast food like crazy and not drinking nearly enough water.

I take a medication that can rarely negatively afect your liver although I've been on it for 20 yrs and never had a problem. But I haven't had my bloodwork in over a yr. and coupled w/ the anxiety and pain, I googled liver problems and of course thought that's what I had. I thought that for a day or two, then it went away and then my fears came back. In the last two weeks, here are the things I've seriously, or not-so-seriously considered that I might have:
liver problems
diabetes
high blood pressure
cancer
IBS
kidney problems
thyroid problem
roseaca

I've been doing yoga and exercising twice a day, changed my eating habits, and tried to talk about it. It is getting better. Mysteriously, as they always do, my symptoms go away just until a new one appears.  I am getting bloodwork done tomorrow (I am an avoider of drs) so hopefully that will help, too.

I've worn out my husband and anyone else that will listen. But I wanted to share with others because I want to connect w/ people who think like I do. Thanks.