We got a dog at 8 weeks old while we were dating. We moved in together, for 2 years. Things didnt work out. Her fault (seriously). I left day after Christmas. I had our dog with me for 1 month, then the owner of house my mother is renting out from didnt want the dog there because she was too big. She is an italian mastiff 75 pounds, her name is Bella. So my ex, agree'd to take her in February. I dont see my dog often at all like once a month if that, because I dont want to see my ex. My mother just bought a condo, closing date is beginning of June and we can move in there. Im going to take my dog for a while, and then she will be taking her, etc .. its going to be back and forth. I cant do this crap for the entires dogs life. It breaks my heart to not see my dog for months at a time. I just think of when I would take her for walks and her being all happy and jumping on me when I let her out of the cage after work and stuff. Kind of hurts emotionally very much right now just thinking about it and typing it. But I dont know how to handle this. I need my dog back. I need to somehow wait the month and a half to get my dog back. But I cant share the dog, its just not going to work like that. I cant live without my dog either. Thoughts are always running through my mind, that its my fault that I dont see the dog, and how the dog is thinking about me and where I am. Its not easy at all. Its like having a child, I would assume. I need some advice or SOMETHING. Thank you.