Also, I don't know if this might help, but next time to take medicine, join the chat and talk to people. I think we could be reassuring and positive and get through the anxiety together. That's why this forum/chat site is here.
And honestly arwashington, I really do understand your fears to a certain degree, because in the past I had similar ones. I was afraid of swallowing pills, and was over attuned to saliva and my own swallowing. Fortunately I was able to shrug off that fear in someway or another. I can't remember how or why. But you will too.
You deserve to be happy and free from these terrible shackles of anxiety. Wouldn't it be nice to spend time with your husband and just enjoy what's going on around you, instead of what you think/fear is going on within you?
Trust me, I know this feeling. And I know how helpless it can make me feel.
The good thing is that you know you've felt these feelings many times before and they always subside, and you never really choke. It's hard to find the assertiveness to believe the reality that it's all in your head - I know how that is. I hope that us affirming that on here eases your mind a bit.
Just know...we DO indeed understand. You're not crazy. Infact, quite the contrary, you are obviously really rather bright. You're just dealing with some issues. Issues that are not perhaps uncommon. But issues that can be debilitating.
I don't know you personally, obviously, but You responded to my post and really made me feel a lot better and gave me hope that my anxiety was understandable. And, I do really understand your phobia, like I said.
I will be praying with hopeful and positive thoughts that you, arwashington, will find peace - that the light will come on and you will find your way out of this anxiety...and any other anxieties. I want you to live a life that you deserve - happy, stress-free, outwardly-focused, fun, relaxing, energetic, etc.