First off let me say that it's taken me some time to get to this point of seeking help from others about my problems I've been having. I'm looking for insight and to relate with other people on here about my problems. This is going to be lengthy but here we go.
I'm a male in my 30's that was in perfect physical and mental health until about 3 years ago when I needed to have knee surgery for a torn meniscus and MCL sprain. During my recovery I was given percosets and used them as prescribed... After I used up all my meds I felt like I went through a withdrawal from not having them anymore. This was the start of my spiral to where I am now.
I travel for work and a few weeks after I recovered from the surgery I was on the road again. During my travels I felt very weak at times and had bad headaches, stomach pains, and a hard beating hard. I went to the ER out of town because of this and their conclusion was that I was fatigued. I was released and went on my way.
Several weeks later while I was at home I started having bad stomach pains, they were all over and gave me bouts of diarrhea and severe cramping. Once again I went to the ER and since the wait was so long I decided to leave before being seen. The next morning the pain was not severe but had went down to my appendix area and so I went to the ER again. Several hours later I was in surgery for an inflamed appendix (supposedly).
Fast forward to several weeks after my appendectomy and I'm in the same situation again. I'm traveling and don't feel well again. I had bouts of headaches, chest pains, and pains in my joints. Weakness and fatigue is always occuring as well. Most of the time I fight it off and wait until I get home so I can speak to my doc.
During the next few years I have been fighting my health and been going into the ER several times for my problems. I have been diagnosed with sinus infections, without any blood tests to back it up, which lead me to seeing an allergist who told me I am allergic to most trees, grasses, and weed pollens including dust. So now i'm on allergy medicines.
Fast forward to the past 6 months and I still don't feel like myself. I get very tired and get headaches that can't be remedied with aspirin. I get bad joint pains, chest pains, my heart beats hard, and I feel like i'm overly anxious about my health. I break down and go to the doc once more and demand tests for immune related problems, as my sister had been diagnosed with lupus several years back. The doc tested me for lyme, several lupus tests, etc. The only thing that came back abnormal was that I had been exposed to parvo at some time in the past.
I was referred to an rheumatologist to follow up on my tests and she thinks that I might have the onset of lupus due to having a malar rash on my face at the time, which comes and goes. All my other tests had come back negative.
And here I am now. I'm currently traveling for my job again and I'm stricken by pains in my ribs on the right side of my chest and a headache.
I've had enough of it and as I try to seek answers for my problems the more I think I'm just making this all up since there have been no conclusive tests to prove otherwise. I also think this might be the case because I can distract myself with activities that take my mind off feeling bad and then I feel fine.
I don't want to admit it might be a mental problem but all signs are leading to this being the cause. I've tried to reason with myself all the time that it's all in my mind but it doesn't seem to usually help. Sometimes I break down and literally cry and it seems to help.
I just want to get myself back to where I was 3 years ago before everything started going wrong. This is why I am here.