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I don't know who I am anymore
« on: April 26, 2014, 02:19:18 PM »
I feel like I've lost my identity, I just feel like a zombie through most of the day, even my voice sounds different to me. Is this like schizophrenia or like schitziaffective disorder or something? Does anyone have this? Or maybe I'm just like hypersensitive and over think everything. Idk :(
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Re: I don't know who I am anymore
« Reply #1 on: April 26, 2014, 03:27:38 PM »
I'm really sorry for you. That sounds very distressing. I've never experienced that and wouldn't be qualified to diagnose you anyway. I highly recommend you get a diagnosis from a psychiatrist. Not only does naming a disorder take away anxiety, it also then offers a plan for treatment.
Step 1: professional diagnosis
Step 2: plan for treatment
Step 3: slow recovery
Step 4: maintenance

I wish there were an easier, faster path, but there isn't. You're not alone in this fight. We can support you and professionals can help you. The sooner you start, the sooner your recovery will.
Good luck
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I'm not crazy, I've just lost my mind

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Re: I don't know who I am anymore
« Reply #2 on: April 26, 2014, 03:43:41 PM »
I feel ok now, I went for a drive and got my mind off of things. I just spend to much time dwelling on my anxiety.
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Re: I don't know who I am anymore
« Reply #3 on: April 26, 2014, 03:48:20 PM »
Idk unless it's some kind of identity disorder.
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Re: I don't know who I am anymore
« Reply #4 on: April 26, 2014, 03:56:55 PM »
Wow I guess it is a symptom of depersonalization disorder

How does DPAFU manifest itself?
Up until the mid-1990s our understanding of this condition had changed little since 1950, but over the past fifteen years there have been major advances in research and treatment; for the first time, doctors are beginning to understand the mechanisms in the brain that are involved in the disorder and studies have shown that far from being rare, DPAFU may be as common as other well-known psychiatric conditions such as schizophrenia.

DPAFU symptoms can affect people on five levels:

1) Emotional

How you feel, your moods, numbness

People with DPAFU experience an alteration in their perception or experience of the self.  Sufferers often report that their actions feel 'robotic', and as if they are an outside observer of their own body and mental processes. Their voice may sound unfamiliar and their thoughts, speech and actions no longer feel spontaneous.
Another major factor sufferers describe is an inability to feel emotion, even towards those close to them. 
There can be an additional feeling of being cut off from the world, and even one's self; for example, some sufferers feel detached from their own reflection when looking in the mirror.  This can lead to doubts and confusion about one's own identity.
Many sufferers also report significant levels of anxiety, which can manifest itself as panic attacks, a fear of going out alone, intense anxiety in social situations, or a tendency to worry too much.
2) Cognitive

Thoughts, beliefs, meanings, images, attention and memory

It is common for sufferers to spend excessive amounts of time worrying about abstract, existential, metaphysical or hypochondriacal issues, such as the meanings of words, how other people experience the world, the meaning of life and concepts of ***** and time.
Some sufferers may be quite introverted or preoccupied, as they spend a lot of time dwelling on their thoughts, and may appear wrapped up in their own world.
Many sufferers have difficulty with attention and memory; they may have problems remembering everyday things, struggle to take in new information and experience thoughts that are speeded up and confused.
3) Physical

Bodily changes, sleep patterns, numbness

Many feel as though bodily changes have taken place; their head may feel strange, for example large or numb, the body may feel weightless, hollow or lifeless and some may lose their sense of touch, taste or smell.  In some people this experience is so intense that they touch, punch or prick themselves to try to feel 'normal' again.
People's experience of their surroundings can become odd or unusual - occasionally people complain of visual distortion involving the size of objects, their three-dimensionality, or the sharpness of colours.
4) Behavioural

What you do more or less of, things you avoid

When we feel discomfort or stress, it is natural to try to find behaviours, thoughts, situations or substances to take away those unpleasant feelings.  For example, sufferers may stop drinking alcohol or try to improve diet and exercise regimes.  Any action that is used to take away distress or discomfort in this way is called a safety-seeking behaviour.
Sufferers may also employ avoidance tactics, for example going to great lengths to avoid looking in the mirror, being with people, or even leaving the house.
Both these behaviours can appear useful in the short-term, but tend not to last and can actually make the situation worse over time, perpetuating the negative cycles that maintain the problems associated with DPAFU.
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Re: I don't know who I am anymore
« Reply #5 on: April 26, 2014, 04:59:29 PM »
I've had the same feelings, and I have no way of getting professional help right now so I guess im on my own.. I was really sick a few days ago and that really set it off. Since then I've felt off and not myself. Remembering my life is like remembering a dream. I don't feel comfortable in my own body, looking at myself is strange. It's a really scary situation.
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Re: I don't know who I am anymore
« Reply #6 on: April 26, 2014, 05:25:15 PM »
Posted below is a book that has helped a lot of people, it might be worth looking into.

"Overcoming Depersonalization and Feelings of Unreality (Paperback)
Anthony S. David (Author)"

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Re: I don't know who I am anymore
« Reply #7 on: April 26, 2014, 05:31:46 PM »
And know you are not alone, there's a movie called numb with Matthew perry and he suffers from depersonalization in the movie.
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Re: I don't know who I am anymore
« Reply #8 on: April 27, 2014, 12:54:04 AM »
I've felt that way before when I've been depressed. Like a zombie, as you said, or I kind of felt like a robot, just getting through the day and not feeling much. For me, it kind of felt like a coping mechanism. I wasn't happy where I was in life but I didn't have a choice but to be there so I got through it by kind of separating myself. Not on purpose obviously, that's just how I felt. I'm glad you're feeling better now though :)
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Re: I don't know who I am anymore
« Reply #9 on: April 27, 2014, 12:39:27 PM »
Thanks, :) it comes on real hard in the morning and tends to diminish later on in the evening. It's pretty bad when it hits tho.
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