I think one of the problems I have is that I am (and have been for a LONG time) perpetually bored. For years (like 6?) I worked full time in an office where I seriously had nothing to do. I sat with a computer in an office only having real work to do maybe an hour a week, at most. But it paid well, and no one else would hire me, so I stayed. And stayed. Now I work in a coffee shop for just 3 hours a day but there are hardly any customers. At home I find it impossible to get into anything. I'm so tired of watching movies/tv because that's what I did at work for hours at a time. I don't enjoy reading anymore. I don't enjoy playing games. When I'm home alone with my son I find myself constantly trying to find something to do with no luck. Sometimes I clean the house, but then it's clean and there's nothing left. And now, because of my anxiety, I'm afraid to do a lot of things, like go for a walk, or go to the park. We're about to move to a better neighborhood where I actually could safely go out walking, but I'm afraid it'll give me a heart attack. My attention span is completely shot at this point.
I don't know how to fix this. I feel caught in a cycle where the anxiety keeps me bored and the boredom makes me anxious.